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| That one candle sang the Happy Birthday song! And that homemade cake was DE licious! |
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| Stewart and I |
Will, my little brother was born July 30 and my mom's day is August 2.
So we always have a big time celebrating in the summer. Mom and Will always come over to our house the weekend after their birthdays and Stewart fires up the grill, we eat, have birthday cake and ice cream, hang out and just have a fun time. This year was no exception.
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| Mom and Will with their Birthday Goodies. |
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| Will, Mom and I |
Of course, kids always enter my mind.
I am always thinking how it needs to hurry up and happen so that mom can be a grandma.
My dad is already gone as well as both sets of grandparents. Stewart's as well.
I really want any child that we may have to have a chance to know my mom and Stewart's parents.
It's pretty depressing when you think about it all.
And that's also why I get so angry when people tell me to stop thinking about it so hard and that it will happen when it happens and how I just need to not be so stressed out.
To which I ALWAYS scream inside my head, "I'm not a spring chicken here people! I really don't have that luxury! Plus, I have to calculate for ovulation!! So if I just don't think about how my kitchen is dirty and I don't stress about it, it will just magically become clean on its own? If I don't stress about paying my bills, it will just happen?"
I read an article not too long ago about how dealing with infertility had the same emotional stress and impact as that of a cancer/chemotherapy patient. (If I can ever find that article again, I'm posting in one of my blog entries) You wouldn't tell a cancer patient to not worry and stress and it'll all go away would you?
BUT, I am still holding on to my Faith.
After all that birthday celebration with family(and the little rant above), it's time to get down to business. And that business is me being a 2nd grade teacher.
I am kicking and screaming that summer break is over. It's a difficult time transitioning from summer brain to teacher brain. I've been meeting myself coming and going the last couple of weeks. Then there's the going to bed early and getting up early. I am the definition of a night owl. So is Stewart. So when I say I stayed up late and slept in even later...I mean it.
My classroom is together(BIG thank you's to mom and Stewart!!), I've worked registration, spent an entire week of in-service, spent most of my alloted money at Knowledge Tree, planned lessons, figured out outfits, bought lunch goodies, and even bought a new lunch bag.
And now I'm about to go back for the 2nd full week with students.
This will be my 11th year of teaching and I ALWAYS get nervous the first day of school. I can't figure it out. I feel pretty confident as my abilities as a teacher. Maybe it's just because you never really know what you'll face when you walk through those doors. I always want to make a good impression. So say a little prayer for teachers everywhere as we start school and teach the children of our world.
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| I love those monkeys! |
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| View of my classroom from my desk. That projector thingy is a SmartBoard and is VERY cool! |
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| Morning Meeting Area |
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| My classroom library |
Speaking of going back to school...Stewart quit his job in June, started working on his art portfolio, received the best scholarship available based on 10 pieces, and got accepted into a great art program.
He has been unhappy at his job for some time now and it has always been his dream to do art for a living. Specifically become an illustrator for a major comic book company like Marvel. He is talented and committed to his dream. I am extremely proud of him and cannot wait to see what the future holds for him.
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| A self portrait and one of my favs. |
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