Santa Pj's and The Little Couple

This blog is brought to you by the super cute Santa Clause pj's for little kids I saw online and how it made me sad, but how I'm determined to deal with the sad but also love the good I DO have in my life.

Also, Stewart and I watched a few episodes of The Little Couple on TLC last night. 
They adopted a cute little boy from China and are beginning the surgeries he needs because of his dwarfism. 

Oh Jen Arnold...can I please be like you when I grow up?

It made us both realize just how much love, but also fear and stress parents have to deal with sometimes. 
I think watching made us realize that maybe we DO want to become parents however that may happen.  The catch, though, is dealing with and I guess getting over the death of the original dream. Which is to have a child the traditional way and that looks like us. 

I know that ANY child we may have one day will be ours.  No matter HOW that child comes to us.
But it's difficult letting go of your original plans.  And I'm just stubborn.  I want what I want when I want it. HOW I want it. Dang it!!

I mean, I know having a kid is expensive, but adopting is even more so.  There are so many what's, if's and but's.  And I'm just tired. Can't one thing be easy.

But then I watch The Little Couple.  I see how HAPPY they are.  How happy little Will is.  And can we just say how PERFECT it is that in all the whole, wide world, they found this sweet, little boy who needed them so much.  All they have gone through in both their lives seem to have led them to adopting a child with exactly what they are so well versed in.  And are able to provide all he needs in order to live a happy, healthy life.

That's GOD people.  

In every tiny detail of their whole story.  He is RIGHT THERE. 
Things like this are SUCH confirmation in my soul.
THIS is the sort of thing I'm talking in my other posts when I talk about having Faith and how I KNOW God is there in our tiny details. And how I'm able to keep going and look toward the future. Whatever that may be.
Life with a child or without.

So I guess the real question here is are we willing to trust enough. Whatever the Lord has planned for us. Are we willing to let go of what we expected and just allow Him to do His thing?